Sigh. Yes, another big one. I did not innerstand when it came up, though I was curious, let’s lean in to it, go deeper…and AWAY we go! ***These are the words that came in, I do not choose the words, they “present” themselves to me when they are ready to heal, so I choose to write them as they show up, no editing.
I write it down, then go through the process to remove it from all within and around me where this story exists, no matter where it came from. LOTS moves.
I move on to seeing where in my body there exists a feeling to hone in on…nothing. Then…the tears start. The memories of being mistaken as a boy when I was a young girl, and I identified as a girl. Short hair though, tshirts and jeans, my Dad was ready for a boy. I grew up firmly anchored in the masculine side of me, the numbers person, the calendar person in charge, the money person in charge, find a place for it and I would get it done…another masculine trait that get ‘er done.
Feeling hurt when I went to a biker bar with girls and being asked out…by a girl. What is she seeing? I think…it’s not me.
After the waterfall of tears and memories were followed by but you were always “one of those”. Oh, thoughtform, I SEE you…and I am back again to vacuuming out everywhere this exists in and around me…and it is removed even deeper.
I go through my inner child exercises and hold her while she gives even more in depth info, and I have that chat with my Mom and my Dad when they were the age that this story first came up for clearing…when I was 13/14. Lots of healing.
Next karmic de-activation. I ask Sacred Heart-ancestors? No.
Sacred Heart-other incarnations? Yes.
Ah, now it makes sense. I was still carrying active memories/wounds from prior lifetimes where I was bisexual/transgender! The wounds I carried over from those lifetimes were ready to heal, and DID! Karmic de-activation complete! YES!!!
I ask Sacred Heart- was this something I was evolving forward for the collective? No.
So after journaling, much saging, burning the journal pages as part of my ritual showing completion…among other steps lol…back to more peace, joy, love, harmony.
I always knew no matter how someone identified themselves…I’m ok with it. Now I know and healed that part of me that carried wounds from other lifetimes when I chose to identify me as other than man or woman…which ripples out in healing energy to those around me. I love my life. I wish you to love yours, the YOU are truly are NOW, however you know/present yourself, whatever age…just be YOU. I want to see you, the true you, enjoying life in all its moments!!!! Blessings and love from my heart to yours!!!
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