Hmmm….where do I start LOL! I love life! All of it! I love unconditionally, from my heart which is where all true love starts.
I went from victim mentality…why did this happen to me??? to the true me…realizing all that has happened to this point has happened and has brought me immense wisdom and a deep knowing that the past is just that, past! When something doesn’t go like I think it should…I focus on what is here and now for me to see/enjoy/honor/find peace with what is? I focus on my now, my today, and as things come up for me…as they do since I have chosen to always grow and expand in my life…I choose to lean into them, hold my inner child, and heal. I choose to heal it all. One of my many daily prayers is to live my highest destined path…no matter what, and for my highest light team to fiercely remind me of this even/ especially at the most challenging times…as I more and more realize some of most challenging times are really “just” those fears coming up that are ready to be healed…when I release all to flow as is best for this highest unfolding on the other side of it is always more love, joy and peace in knowing all is well. I pray many prayers for all lands, waters and living beings to truly be free, at peace, and in love and joy. When I focus on healing what is in me that is ready and comes up during my day…the world changes in ways well beyond my effort and understanding.
I no longer “work” as I serve and share my talents…which creates more immense love and joy!
I have immense love and joy in having three souls being born as my children, one soul born as my grandbaby with a new soul coming into being in July as the newest grandbaby!
I love to tell children they are amazing, they are beautiful, they are SO loved. I know this is so. They are so loved by Source, their Highest Light team, Mother Father God of Earth, to name a few! They have had the courage to be born now to heal wounds from prior lifetimes….today!
I treat all children as my own. I am not leaving a legacy of trash for all children. I recycle, compost, upcycle, purchasing organic, biodegradable items, and compostable items. Please note: I am not perfect…I am doing the best I can as me now, always growing, always changing, always becoming more of who I truly am.
Back to the beginning… I don’t remember much about my childhood. I remember going down a slide inside in kindergarten…and the boy I was laughing with. Now…now I realize I don’t remember because I had shut down and blocked it out. I have healed the wound: my inner child said “I don’t want to be here.” My consciousness was raped at an early age. No one can see this rape as it is the energy around us that is taking, sucking out life, controlling people (they are not in control of themselves when they are reacting…the fear/hurt/anger is controlling them), the absence of love energies. Getting slapped across the face or spanked, the only way some knew how to get their fear or their anger out from what they went through during the day (all the feelings they did not feel and stuffed in). Do what I say, not what I do…this energy controlled many in my childhood. Without these experiences I would not be the person I am today, which is to KNOW I am the example…you can choose to do what I say as I also do what I say. I forgive it all, even if it seems unforgivable to some.
I choose my career – CPA – by looking down a page of careers showing how much I could make. I could work numbers well, done. I was going to achieve it all, end poverty in my home, have a successful business, be a successful Mom, do what a wife does… As soon as I had my degree I was married, you see, I was afraid to be alone. NOW I know I inherited the trait of over giving to the detriment of self, which I lived up until year 2020, and have subsequently healed…little did I know then that I was living in my self created hell most of the time due to my over giving. I worked full time, tax season goal was up to 100 hours a week. When I had my first child I was told something along the lines of “this is ridiculous Sara, you said you would be back full time and I need you back now”. Monica was born August 31, 2001; I worked part time until I was back full time October 1st, 2001 as demanded by my boss. I forgive him, I bless him, I love him, I honor him and the experiences I had which made me who I am today.
Three children in four years…working full time. When they were in school I had more “free time” which meant I volunteered at school on my vacation days, spent nights doing things for school board referees, you name it, I was open to trying to do it all. Did I mention financing an office building in 2005 in the midst of all of this? Finding out during the building process that the money…that I was told to expect it would cost…would go over by more than 1.5 times the quote, so I would charge up my credit cards to pay for the overage? I forgive those not knowing what it would actually cost, I bless them, I love them, I honor them. Once the building was completed the firm I worked for moved in. It was and is a beautiful space. However, the feelings that came up since the renters that were expected did not materialize…sucked. In 2010 or so I was diagnosed with multiple sclerosis, a dis-ease. When the doctor showed me the med she wanted me to take, which included in the directions that I would down the line receive cancer from the meds….I said NO. I wanted to live and see my kids and grandchildren!!! I searched for answers, everyone thought I was crazy, looking at me with this sad, so sorry your life is over look in their eyes. I forgive them, I bless them, I love them, I honor them. My boss “let me go” at this time. I forgive him, I bless him, I love him, I honor him. I then started my own CPA business. I found a natural health doctor and one year later when I went back in found out all the symptoms of MS were gone! The doctor congratulated me for taking the meds to which I said “I only took supplements”…and she walked out. I forgive her, I bless her, I love her, I honor her. BTW my daily prayers during this healing time, along with almost daily tears, was GOD, please show me what I need to do. If I heal from this I promise I will do what I should be doing! I know NOW it was not yet time for me to wake up to what I was supposed to do…and I have healed from regrets that I did not do enough, that I did not hear the call for what I was supposed to do…and I have forgiven myself. I forgive me, I bless me, I love me, I honor me.
In 2011 I had about max’ed out all my credit, and with a bucket of fear inside, though with honesty always in all my doings I came clean with the bank. I had no available credit, though I saw other mortgage companies were offering 1% interest on their loans with the rental market position…to help others get through. My lender did not take me up on that offer. Little did I know the healing that would occur based on what I needed to experience!!! Instead another option I requested was agreed to: for them to take the deed in lieu of foreclosure, meaning I paid them a certain sum and they write off the balance. As a side note I helped them find the buyer who did buy the building, as I had been trying to sell it. I did not realize how this “mortgage crisis” energy was ALSO raping my consciousness until in 2024…yes…I rented a home whose mortgage was from this same lender. This is when I healed that wound realizing the lender had been raping my energy since 2011….every time the thought of that debt that had been released…the thought would come in that I should repay it…which would allow this energy to take my energy unconsciously from me throughout the years. Once I realized they had been taking energy ever since 2011…when we had made a conscious agreement that in exchange for the deed they agreed to take the building back it SHOULD have been done…it was my looking back and not seeing the closure…I left the door open for them to take some of my energy throughout the years. Very grateful to have the tools to heal this one. I forgive them, I bless them, I honor them, I love them.
I went to a church weeklong camp with my kids around 2014 and spent most of my time in the prayer chapel. I was earnestly asking God how to move forward. I knew I needed to either grow my business or downsize, I was successful in business and there was no time left to do what I enjoyed. At the end of the week I clearly heard to my question – do I grow my business “NO!” Less than 2 months later I would know why….my Mom was diagnosed with stage 4 cancer…she had a tiny spot of breast cancer that went straight to her bones…not detected by the mammogram, actually detected through her colon testing. Us daughters came around her and gave it our all, going to San Diego, taking turns with going with her, for her to cross the border and take natural health cancer treatments. Mom seemed to be doing well after these treatments every six months…and we gradually went back to living our lives. A few months later Mom was diagnosed with brain cancer…these natural health treatments ALONG with chemotherapy….had given the cancer time to go from her bones to her brain. At that time Mom was transferred to a new doctor, as there are very few that want to be a part of this new treatment where after Mom died I read…no one expected her to live, it was only to extend her life a little bit more. We were told Mom would live up to six months. We started 24/7 care for Mom, my three sisters and I with a bit of my sister in law helping out (my brother’s family lived out of town). Us sisters were working full time, all with kids, all with husbands. When we were 9 weeks in I admitted to my sisters (Mom in the next room as I thought she couldn’t hear me and now I know her spirit was always listening…tears) I no longer knew who I was, I needed to help pay for someone else to help us out. Within a couple days of this Mom went into pain overdrive and was taking morphine 24/7…in less than a week she was gone, October 31, 2017. I was the only one with her when she left her body, and even though she could no longer speak at that time, the sound she made as she left was PURE ASS JOY. This is when I knew when we leave WE ARE NOT GOING TO HELL…unless we choose it!
When my Mom passed away in 2017 I knew it was GO TIME. I didn’t know how this would work, I just kept up my prayers asking for what I needed to do as I healed from the trauma of seeing Mom go from fully alive to little by little living half here on Earth and half already in the next place…to her body being here and no longer conscious at all.
Around 2018 my sister showed me some meditations she had been doing, in case I was interested. I went all in. I felt joy I had not felt in a long time, these were heart opening meditations. I went to one weeklong retreat with my sisters in Niagara Falls before COVID. Little did I know the healings we were taking part in were ones where you enmesh with others energies…and they stay enmeshed until you wake up enough to receive the tools needed to unmesh from them! ***I also enjoyed wine almost every night at this time…now having healed with knowing that drinking allows even MORE energies to enter/enmesh with yours! Not all meditation retreats are as best for your soul, again, another way I have healed is in the unmeshing from these energies, the enmeshed energies that are absent of love. I did online meditations during COVID…again, you may enmesh “online”… I forgive them, I bless them, I honor them, I love them.
When “COVID” started I told my people, my team, I was staying open. We had a huge office I rented, easy to stay within the spacing requirements…they had the option to work or stay home…we enjoyed being the example of health during COVID!
After COVID requirements lightened and retreats opened up I started going to as many as I could…all in the US and Mexico. Again, drinking wine, a glass or two, every night or almost every night. I forgive me, I bless me, I honor me, I love me.
August 2019 found me realizing I was now awake and I wanted to enjoy my life more…while my now ex-husband was not interested in what I was interested in…at all. I forgive him, I bless him, I love him unconditionally from my heart, I honor him, and I honored me by knowing I needed to start living my life in a different way. We lived in the same house and together time was…in front of the TV. In August I moved into the small room across the hall from the bedroom to “work things out” not realizing energy is not contained in one room! No one else in my family wanted the D word, not my ex-husband, not my children…after 8 months of nothing changing…realizing I can only change me, NO ONE ELSE…I left the house, always having a door open for my children. Fall 2020 I moved into my new home with enough space for my children, those I have been blessed to guide through life as my children, to live the 50/50 agreement we worked out. I chose a divorce agreement with splitting assets evenly, which my ex-husband agreed to. It did not matter to me that until that point I was the higher earning member in the household, I wanted this to go smoothly and no repercussions for my children. I then was able to heal and forgive a priest telling my ex-husband, with some of my children present (they were 16, 18, and 19 at the time), that I was basically evil doing these meditations. I forgive them, I bless them, I honor them, I unconditionally love them always knowing it is this absence of love and separation of me from you energy that is controlling their words… I was also able to heal from hearing others advising my ex-husband that “he should have gotten alimony!” I forgive them, I bless them, I honor them, I unconditionally love them as the energy of the words spoken are not their true them. Which I laugh at this voiced opinion now since I sold my business and did not bring in anything close to this amount of funds once I divorced…BY CHOICE. SO MUCH HEALING through my divorce.
Spring 2021 I started assisting in small heart opening classes in Cancun Mexico. I was helping with the setup/IT/tech along with one other, while a gentleman was the “healer”…again so much healing here too. I am well aware NOW that I chose this experience to become who I am…and I LOVE who I am!!! I was still enmeshing in these group energies, not all loving, getting even deeper. My heart was still opening at every event, and I was healing and able to start seeing through the filters my mind would want me to engage in….addictions I had not yet fully healed though I would not give up, I voiced and knew the thoughts were not mine!!!!! At one point I went alone to Mexico City, spending a couple weeks walking the streets, handing out flyers to organize an event there. I enjoyed all of the walking, speaking in English/Spanish un poquito… and honoring many in all walks of life, including children! Little did I know then that this event would not materialize (half baked / half assed manifestations). Back to Cancun for a few more events though the absence of love energy was growing stronger…in October 2022 I was told to leave. I now realize and have healed from knowing the organizer of the events had these absence of love energies which were drawing these energies in..as what can happen when you keep enmeshing with energies at every event. I forgive him, I bless him, I love him unconditionally, I honor him.
I have chosen a new way of guiding others through their own healing where no one enmeshes energy keeping all surrounded by their guides and angels of the Highest Light and in their own energy…which means any absence of love energies go to Source/one true God to be transmuted back into pure Immense Divine Love.
I also stopped drinking any alcohol…realizing I no longer want to check out of any part of my life…I truly want and I AM living all of it!
In January 2023 I let the event organizer know I was done, no longer gifting the costs to provide any more of these heart opening healings. Keep in mind…I was still in overgiving of my energy…and I am fully aware of what I did. My question then was is this amount given unconditionally? NOT is this of highest good for my highest destined unfolding? My Sacred Heart was so cluttered from other absence of Love energies I did not hear my Heart. I said of course, it is unconditional, and I gave. My journey. I arrived home in late 2022 to a just over $30,000 MN tax bill for 2022 which I can now laugh about… I had just started healing from my overgiving in relationship with men. I stated my no again and again and again…kept shutting that door again and again and again and asking for my highest destined unfolding.
Buying a last minute ticket to a concert July 3, 2023, even thought I was leaving July 4 for Venice Italy…was an eye opener. I was finally at a place of peace and was not looking for any man to fulfill anything in me. I went to the concert and danced and laughed and WOO HOO’d my ass off, having the absolute time of my life. As I left, walking almost completely around the entire stadium I knew something in me had changed… I went to Venice, going to one concert the day I arrived and leaving about an hour into the concert realizing I had heard the musician in person, and I truly did not need to stay for more. The driver thought I was crazy being ready to leave so soon…you see people had been lined up for hours before to get into the event and “no one leaves early” unless you are Sara lol. I am not the typical tourist you see, as I walk the streets and spent most of my time in the clover sunning by the pool, or behind the pool over by the canal, or off walking by the canals or through the park close by. I was just starting to truly love me, as I am. I had still asked for advice before going on this trip though…so still was looking outside of my Sacred Heart for guidance. I now know better routes when my Sacred Heart does not speak…I have more clarity options and I have my metaphysical mentor I can reach out for a second intuitive check…who always refers me to run what she received…you guessed it…through my Sacred Heart again.
I started being called through my heart to other concerts, sending love from my heart to all people I saw before the events, then during the concerts…at first sending love only to the main musician, then realizing I could send love to the other musicians solely from my heart…then sending love to their instruments, blessing the musicians, the instruments. The final concert I attended I realized I had finally reached a new peace in me…knowing I could stand and let pure unconditional love run through me and not needing to send it out to anyone else…as it just radiated out.
And yes, during these concerts that started July 2023 I was the one that always asked for coffee, or hot chocolate, or tea. Once I started Purium super foods in 2024 I also dropped coffee, now it’s “only” organic chocolate without sugar, or organic herbal teas for the high vibe me I CHOOSE to be.
I have felt called to attend more concerts and I realize, by asking my Sacred Heart, it was not best for me to attend…and if it was not best for me it was not best for anyone else…even if they do not understand it at the time…each ripple when we do what is best and most loving for ourself in self love and self care IS HUGE. It is flow versus gaps. I am the example, I am who I am meant to be.
I continued to say no to these energies that wanted back in…again and again and again. In March 2024 I signed up for a year long mentorship with my metaphysical healer (a healer of body, mind, spirit)…and things started shifting. I started the Love Territory Guide classes, finding out about Purium, super food shakes made from organic food or food grown in regenerated soil without the use of pesticides and without the use of GMOs…and I signed up. ALL IN.
After two months of the detox process I could hear my heart with more clarity though I still had a clutter of voices wanting my attention. This is when I was clear enough to call in the person needed to cut cords (these cords were headed out to other energies that were siphoning energy from me so I was unable to fully know what my highest destined path was at times). I forgive them, I bless them, I unconditionally love them, I honor them…and that said there is no way that I will allow this ever again! I DO NOT CONSENT to siphoning of energy, to psychic interference, to artificial intelligence anywhere in, near, or around me!!!
I purchased my Sacred Heart necklace which included grounding and clearing properties. The grounding and clearing energy was fiercely strong to me the first two days…yet I would not take it off, let’s rip that band-aid off right now! I am DONE being used/siphoned/controlled/ psychic interference! My Sacred Heart and Sacred Heart connection is vital to my life force!!! I also started sea salt baths almost every day as I shed one energy after another through the healing practices I guide others through.
I also dropped organic sugar off my list of allowed foods, my only sugar is that which is found in fruits and other organic whole foods. I LOVE cinnamon and coconut flakes in cereal or granola bowls! I have found one granola called No Sugar Buzz!!!! At this time was able to heal from the group meditation energies that had been siphoning energy through various tech/routes. I also healed from the “marriage” energy wound I had been carrying. Who knows what is next? As a Sacred Spirituality Coach…when things come up I as soon as possible go through the healing process. I realize as I grow more and more into who I truly am deeper wounds/beliefs show up and I find myself unable to sleep until I go through the healing process, which of course leads to a better night’s sleep lol. 🙂 More peace, more joy, more love, more harmony…this is my life.
Life is magical to me once I realized I chose to incarnate here, I chose to experience this, as I can only heal in others what I have healed in myself. I healed from all of this so I am now available to guide others through their own healing, providing a Sacred space without enmeshing energies…which is always the best healing option since when you enmesh you THEN need to heal through and disentangle the enmeshing known as the bigger/more mess that was created!!! Once you read this about me you can choose to realize there is nothing in your past to shame/blame/criticize yourself for…start realizing it is done…and choose what you want in your today. I want to see you and love you from my heart to yours as you are enjoying LIFE in your today!!!!
Why do I share all of this? For those who have been through anything like any part of this…or all of it, to know I can guide you through healing it when you are ready. For those who haven’t gone through experiences like this, for you to be aware before choosing these experiences. As always, ask your Sacred Heart for guidance…no person, place, thing, energy is better guidance than your Sacred Heart. Once you allow your Sacred Heart to speak and start following the advice…it speaks more often and easier…every day.
If you cannot hear your Sacred Heart yet, try holding your left hand over your Sacred Heart, then your right hand on top of your left hand when asking. Then envision a large red heart where your heart is, then see it filled with red roses of all sorts of sizes, then see the a candle flame of Love at the top, and then see Source/the one true God golden energy emanating out from your heart…then ask. Ask while in a space by yourself. Try saging the corners of the room you are in with a window open and command that energies not of the highest light are not allowed there and must leave now, and then having sage burning while you are asking your Sacred Heart. If you are around electronics I recommend plenty of selenite which helps clear the air and space around you. The more I clear my body by eating more whole, pure, organic foods, being in/around nature, 432/528 hz music for meditations….the easier it has been for me to hear my Sacred Heart.
I honor all, as I realize it is where they are at…and I unconditionally love them where they are. This is the lifetime where I choose those I walk with, and where I also choose to respect the other and walk away…when walking with another is no longer my direct, highest destined path to my life of ease, grace, love, peace, joy, and harmony. I am no longer waiting. My self care, self respect, self compassion and self forgiveness allows those who are on similar paths to cross paths with me! This is the life I truly came here to live and the example I am grounding into this Earth for all to access now and forevermore.